it's me again...

long time no update this blog..
why?
feeling my life no really in trouble...
no any unhappy happen...

but recently happen one thing..
my family problem...
parent's quarrel..
but today.. seen all is gone =)

should bless on wat i have...
no more complain..

btw.. a bit sad coz last year result cannot get dean list..
actually i not the type like to study..
i dun like study...
why i come study?
because i think it's a need...
still wondering can get dean list next sem or not?

next... sometime started to think...
my fren...
dunno why...
i still look like not really good on this...
i feel that. dun have any close fren....

love? lol...
no... so sad...................

btw.. last 2 week intern...
going to stop..
then start my trip...
lot of plan in my brain.
but then... how many success?
hahah.. just try my best.....

one more one more...
recently start writing my 自传．．
although no much ppl reading..
but. i think it's great to record my stuff...
going to publish more =)

it's almost ~ end ~

hehe.. 

sooon.... i will be release one big burden...

i think less than one month...

then after 5/3/11...

i will be no burden..

do whatever i like..

wanna plan...

how crazy i wanna do later...

hohoho....

another thing....

my love matter..

erm... dun think it 1st...

play around 1st..

LOL...

mayb i not suitable to be attach with it....

tired.......

the journey of being active in club and other should be almost until to the end.. because...

i ady start cannot start for my time all being occupy by those event..\

i want more of my own time..
my very own time!!!

act my life start to change since i swear to myself on one senteces in form 2..
" I WANNA BECOME FAMOUS !!!"

so funny.. right? haha.. how come can be like this.. haha/
and also still feel that act all my leadership and other act still lack..

but still giving lot of chance...
sometime really feel that..
i not the ONE who can make this.

if another one substitute me?
mayb many will change..

IF MY LIFE WITHOUT ACTIVITY?

wat i doing now?
quite a nice question.. ehhehe

其实。。行吗？？

其实有时我真的怀疑自己。。
我可以吗？
我做到吗？

在某些人面前。。
身为一个头。。

我能说不吗？

开始有点口不对心了。。
但那是必要的。。

我还会经常想。。
你们好像都太看得起我了。。
我。。从来没有经过谁的栽培。。
都是以我的理念。。一路走下去。。
我的理念。。
真的行吗？？

最近。。
有个大型活动。。
在每个人都这样有spirit的讲出自己的理想时。。
其实我的心。。是忐忑的。。
做到。。固然是很好。。
万一。。失败？
我们能承担下那责任吗？？


面对自己一直不想做的东西。。
最后还是我负责。。
其实。。这就是责任罢。。

其实。。我一路来。。
并不喜欢这样。。
没有意义所谓的“charity”。。
我最想的。。
是在心灵上帮到他们的。。
真的帮助到他们的。。

而现在。。
已经开始了第一步。。
我真的能由第一步。。
好好的做到最好一步。。
真的做到好好的吗？？

wastING !!!

how come i like to wasting my time??
always doing something that useless??
not efficiency...

then until last minutes come out with 120% turbo to back up..
WHY??

not good not good..

act feel that not enough time for me ady..
no more play...

concentrate on study.. and also the clu...

future time?? revision or some start to study...
coming spring fest.. have to plan it..
then MPP?? dun care 1st..
if it me.. sure is me.. if not.. it's ok....

that's me.. MOVE FAST !!!!!!!!!!!!

my mood...

recently my mood of serve really drop until to the bottom...
luckily today meeting after discuss something..
then only my spirit of my heart only can start to burn up again..
hehe...

i admit i not a strong ppl...
not a very "geng" de ppl..
so that all the stuff like not efficient...

mayb i will give the reason of...
all of them busy exam.. assignment...
all of them busy with other club their facultu as well,
all of them busy with activity prom and spring...

but that for me..
all just a excuse !!

but how come i can;t solve it..
really can;t work "hard" enough on that...

have to plan..
this is the 1st year to set up the club..
if not doing well, they are difficult to continue later...

work hard for me and everyone...
and now is the time to change another style of leading...

no title...

now.. feel that i like start to become useless....
many things like...
not under my control....

like... my time...
always feel that my time is running out....

just now.. i failed to sacrified the 3 days time to the camp...
coz why?
i start to "scare"..
scare wat i do cannot be well..

in prom night emcee...
since have to partner with another 2..

in study...
since i until now also cant really caught up wat the lesson is..

in life..
like wasting my time...

in club..
why it ady stop working??

in many many..

currently upset > happy...

happy happy... how come u will let the upset win u..