其实。。行吗？？

其实有时我真的怀疑自己。。
我可以吗？
我做到吗？

在某些人面前。。
身为一个头。。

我能说不吗？

开始有点口不对心了。。
但那是必要的。。

我还会经常想。。
你们好像都太看得起我了。。
我。。从来没有经过谁的栽培。。
都是以我的理念。。一路走下去。。
我的理念。。
真的行吗？？

最近。。
有个大型活动。。
在每个人都这样有spirit的讲出自己的理想时。。
其实我的心。。是忐忑的。。
做到。。固然是很好。。
万一。。失败？
我们能承担下那责任吗？？


面对自己一直不想做的东西。。
最后还是我负责。。
其实。。这就是责任罢。。

其实。。我一路来。。
并不喜欢这样。。
没有意义所谓的“charity”。。
我最想的。。
是在心灵上帮到他们的。。
真的帮助到他们的。。

而现在。。
已经开始了第一步。。
我真的能由第一步。。
好好的做到最好一步。。
真的做到好好的吗？？

wastING !!!

how come i like to wasting my time??
always doing something that useless??
not efficiency...

then until last minutes come out with 120% turbo to back up..
WHY??

not good not good..

act feel that not enough time for me ady..
no more play...

concentrate on study.. and also the clu...

future time?? revision or some start to study...
coming spring fest.. have to plan it..
then MPP?? dun care 1st..
if it me.. sure is me.. if not.. it's ok....

that's me.. MOVE FAST !!!!!!!!!!!!

my mood...

recently my mood of serve really drop until to the bottom...
luckily today meeting after discuss something..
then only my spirit of my heart only can start to burn up again..
hehe...

i admit i not a strong ppl...
not a very "geng" de ppl..
so that all the stuff like not efficient...

mayb i will give the reason of...
all of them busy exam.. assignment...
all of them busy with other club their facultu as well,
all of them busy with activity prom and spring...

but that for me..
all just a excuse !!

but how come i can;t solve it..
really can;t work "hard" enough on that...

have to plan..
this is the 1st year to set up the club..
if not doing well, they are difficult to continue later...

work hard for me and everyone...
and now is the time to change another style of leading...