其实。。行吗？？

其实有时我真的怀疑自己。。
我可以吗？
我做到吗？

在某些人面前。。
身为一个头。。

我能说不吗？

开始有点口不对心了。。
但那是必要的。。

我还会经常想。。
你们好像都太看得起我了。。
我。。从来没有经过谁的栽培。。
都是以我的理念。。一路走下去。。
我的理念。。
真的行吗？？

最近。。
有个大型活动。。
在每个人都这样有spirit的讲出自己的理想时。。
其实我的心。。是忐忑的。。
做到。。固然是很好。。
万一。。失败？
我们能承担下那责任吗？？


面对自己一直不想做的东西。。
最后还是我负责。。
其实。。这就是责任罢。。

其实。。我一路来。。
并不喜欢这样。。
没有意义所谓的“charity”。。
我最想的。。
是在心灵上帮到他们的。。
真的帮助到他们的。。

而现在。。
已经开始了第一步。。
我真的能由第一步。。
好好的做到最好一步。。
真的做到好好的吗？？

wastING !!!

how come i like to wasting my time??
always doing something that useless??
not efficiency...

then until last minutes come out with 120% turbo to back up..
WHY??

not good not good..

act feel that not enough time for me ady..
no more play...

concentrate on study.. and also the clu...

future time?? revision or some start to study...
coming spring fest.. have to plan it..
then MPP?? dun care 1st..
if it me.. sure is me.. if not.. it's ok....

that's me.. MOVE FAST !!!!!!!!!!!!

my mood...

recently my mood of serve really drop until to the bottom...
luckily today meeting after discuss something..
then only my spirit of my heart only can start to burn up again..
hehe...

i admit i not a strong ppl...
not a very "geng" de ppl..
so that all the stuff like not efficient...

mayb i will give the reason of...
all of them busy exam.. assignment...
all of them busy with other club their facultu as well,
all of them busy with activity prom and spring...

but that for me..
all just a excuse !!

but how come i can;t solve it..
really can;t work "hard" enough on that...

have to plan..
this is the 1st year to set up the club..
if not doing well, they are difficult to continue later...

work hard for me and everyone...
and now is the time to change another style of leading...

no title...

now.. feel that i like start to become useless....
many things like...
not under my control....

like... my time...
always feel that my time is running out....

just now.. i failed to sacrified the 3 days time to the camp...
coz why?
i start to "scare"..
scare wat i do cannot be well..

in prom night emcee...
since have to partner with another 2..

in study...
since i until now also cant really caught up wat the lesson is..

in life..
like wasting my time...

in club..
why it ady stop working??

in many many..

currently upset > happy...

happy happy... how come u will let the upset win u..

study is not my style !!!

act i hate study...
this sem..
not start to study at all..
class go zzzing..
then tutorial dunno how to do...

exam..
die lo..

haiz..
act i really hate study...

should i choose PR to study at the beginning??

why study all this fluid, solid, mechanic, manufacturing and many many science subject???

tired.. tired...

prom night...
moon fest..
chong hwa UTeM..

it seen like busy...
this week got 4 meetings...

something thinking..
is that worth spend a lot of time for it??

later still planning to join MPP..
*but dunno can get it or not la..

so how how how??

this sem start to become very blur in study...
feel that i very weak...
but then... study got no mood...

sei lo..

think think think carefully..

back to origin...

i think here is a place.. to let me..

feel that doing too much of things that not suit my characteristic..

to make my fren happy..
i start to talk so much.
doing something funny..
learn how to have some joke..
learn to "kacau" frens..

to make myself well recognize...
start to join many club..
start knowing many frens...
start to doing something special that "really special"...

to make myself more memorable in my life...
i plan something crazy stuff that the other ppl won't do...
i wil have some great experience no matter how difficult is that...
i wil work harder to achieve my mission...

to make myself is a "good man"..
i start to treat everyone great...
i start to talk and friend to everyone..
i start to join all my fren..

after all this changes..
i still me??

back to origin...

actually...

i like.. to listen ppl talking.....
i like.. like the situation i'm not talking....
i like.. to dreaming without thinking any thing...
i like.. life with nothing...
i like.. many....

but now.. still not the time for me to back to origin at all..
just can back it..
in my blog..
in my free time....

me >>>

this is real about me..

no decoration...

no fancy fancy..

no picture picture...

just full of word..

heart...

feeling....

that's all....

that's me just nobody......